Be My World

The days when I could not see the beauty in the sky,
The days when I did not feel the soothing breeze that stop by,
The days when the loneliness inside haunted and ushered me to cry,
The days when seconds were hours, and time would resist to pass by.

No, no,
None of that was agonizing,
None of that was desperation,
any more than the fact that you were missing.

It is the way I could view the world,
It is the way I could feel the world.

Oh my angel, will you help me see a better world?
Will you be my world? ❤

Another Year Gone – 2014

Time flies. As I write this down, I recall how I spent my Dec 31, 2013. Nothing much as changed for me with my personal life since then. I’m happily what I’m. In fact, I think I got better during 2014 personally. I tried to be sensitive to others. I tried not to hurt anyone deliberately. I tried to be nice and kind as much as possible, as long as possible. I thanked a few people that helped to me to be what I am. I tried not to lose my nerve. I tried to understand my family more and more although I lived my life on my own all these years. I tried to figure out what exactly I want for myself, and what not.

On the professional side, I tried to ensure that my team at office that I lead is growing with their ability to do good job, as much as I tried do it myself; and I tried to ensure that they are more engaged with stuff they are doing. I tried to communicate openly to ensure that we do what the team, and company really wanted. I tried to be rational enough to judge people at office, when judging them became inevitable. I hated certain decisions inevitably, and it was evidentially the wrong decision with unfair motivation despite the confrontation from me. We reduced software build times reasonably well. We are trying to rewrite our build system using “tup build tool”, and we will finish it before Jan’15! I read most part of two wonderful books, “Who says elephants can’t dance”, and “How Google Works” and I digested them reasonably well, and trying to improve myself accordingly.

On the failures part, I failed to hold on to a few activities at office until their closure. I’ve improved since 2013, but there still was more room for improvement. I failed to find a mentor for myself in somebody. I failed to criticize, and apparently, had I communicated more openly, I would have done more good than I did by keeping quiet.

For this year, 2015, my objective is to make at least one useful contribution to open source software(I have 2 ideas in my mind on how I can contribute); to exercise as regularly as possible, to eat at least one fruit per day, to make it to my dream job, and try to become a better person, and to fall in love.

I’m hopeful that I will make most of 2015.

Tongue

Tongue is a small thing, but what enormous damage can it do.

I was trying to tease a friend of mine on a whatsapp group yesterday night. I sort of felt my joke went in wrong direction, however, I presumed that it wasn’t so rude or not funny at all and it wouldn’t disturb him. Like I wrote for myself a few days ago, on how I go beyond the limits in teasing friends, it repeated. This time, I was being careful, yet, I sort of assumed he would take it as a joke. I’ve seen him for taking things lightly. But looks like he hasn’t been liking this.
Plus, as a bonus to screw my morning, a bad dream woke me up. It was quite uncomfortable a dream.
I decided, I will try my best, no matter how close somebody is, to understand my limits with my words. I will choose them carefully. It looks like I just can’t be funny without being rude. 🙂 Benign violation is the word I could recall for these jokes, and clearly, I’m not any capable of cracking them. 🙂
Watch that if you find it funny. I watched it a long time ago.

Internet!

This weekend has almost been like a weekend without internet. I mostly spend my time on my laptop during weekends. I had plans to read some stuff on and off but without internet this plan didn’t fall in place. It seems to me that I’m addicted to my laptop. While I don’t see nothing wrong with it, I’m trying to figure something that keeps me very busy. Like handful of interesting work. I don’t know when would I find that.

A Recognition

I just won myself a recognition at the office in this month’s “Star of the month” competition. It was for my one month effort to deploy, and stabilize ccache in our considerably large software project that I was awarded this. This was done keeping the build time, and the cost of ElectricAccelerator’s license in mind. While I partially won by decreasing the build time by nearly 40% on an average, and meeting the first expectation, I failed to save the cost, as the pressure on resource crunch was huge, and we had to purchase more licenses.

We are aiming at our next promising thing, Tup, a blazing fast, and incredibly accurate, OpenSource build tool. While its adoption on the OpenSource world looks very modest, it is by far, the best OpenSource build tool available as of now, from what I know. I’m hopeful that this should help us accomplish both the targets, of increasing the developer productivity by not wasting lot of time waiting during building stuff, and saving the organization some cost.

I’m not going to quit until this Tup build system is rolled out!