My Fantasy World!

I started my work at office at 9 in the morning. There was this long pending task I was involved in, and the person who was expected to fix this was running a follow-up at an opensource forum. I, out of curiosity, was also trying to seek some help from stackoverflow. I did get some good help.

As I kept reading more about the issue, I’d this feeling that, I just don’t know anything yet!

Every time I see someone with verse knowledge explaining, or writing a topic, a thought just occurs in me that says, ‘Hey, read about that stuff. It is interesting’ I read it for a while, then get myself distracted onto something else. I’ve been working for almost 6 years now, and every time look back to see what have I learnt, I go blank. There isn’t a single area that I’ve stuck myself to for a few years.

I sometimes do wish to go back to college, sit in the class room, listen to the lectures. Long since I left college, I think I also developed some kind of aversion towards classroom teaching, too. I sometimes want to quit work, sit at home read more and more, but I fear trying that for the same reasons I mentioned.

Although I do realize that I must cultivate interest in one subject, and try mastering it, I’m finding it as one thoroughly difficult task to choose something as I get carried away by many easily, leaving my stance nowhere.

A friend once referred to a book, “How to become a programer in 10 years”. Probably what I’m doing is just admiring things like that, and continuing to live in my Fantasy world.

Improvement Is Gradual

I’ve been reading posts from “Freshly Pressed” for the last 3 days. Ok. Not all, only those that interested me. Of those that I read, some of the musings were very close to what I had in my mind or once I’d thought about. This could also be some kinda of déjà vu feeling! I don’t know. But, I never knew how to put my thoughts on paper.

I’m a bit hesitant and bad at expressing myself. I take time. A lot of time, rather. Like preparing for exams day n night, and sleeping in the exam hall, tired! This seem to be happening with my writing, too. I want to write; about a few things I’ve in mind, see around me, experience everyday. But I lack words, the prose that can hold the reader on my blog for a few minutes, and I thought I should prepare for writing first, then try to write.

Then I remembered that I was posting articles to a contest conducted by “The Week” English magazine. This was during my college days, 6 years back. Never did I felt my writing was poor at that time although I know now how poor my articles were. That made me realize that I improved a bit since then, and its okay to write. So, here I go. I just wrote what I’d in my mind.

”Improvement is gradual. If I could think about something I wish deep inside me, for a long time, and try to pursue strongly, perhaps, I can make my wish come true. And, I’m just trying to write on this blog more.

It just lingers..

I read this post last week. I read it again today.

I don’t know how this sounds to me after a few months or years. Yet I’m writing this.

I know I’m not qualified to talk about the topic written over there – startup – as I don’t have the necessary knowledge to write or to talk about it. Yet, this thought keeps lingering in me – and in a lot of people out there I guess.

If I can figure out something that matches what’s written in the last 2 paragraphs of the above article, I will take it up. I read/I write, but I’ve not struck at anything like that yet..

ಬ್ಯಾಚುಲರ್ ಲೈಫ್!

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