Doing It Right, At Right Time

We have a serious problem at our office with software build times. I, being the guy who’s supposed to take care of this system, sometimes go blank with no ideas in my mind to relax the situation. We have serious network issues, resource crunch, hardware limitations, etc.
I knew about the bottlenecks, however, what I did not do was, see what can be done quickly to settle things down to some extent. Perhaps, I was close to doing this, but in my own way, that wasn’t the right way for our current situation. So, my boss called for a meeting and listed down a few things that can potentially help us to some extent.

From this point on, I started thinking what did I not do right, at the right time, and having that done, would things have changed? Well, even now, things are still bad, nevertheless, there has been a lot of things I really had thought about, that are now being raised by somebody else again, and to me, it appears like, I never pursued until it is complete.

That seems to be my first drawback. Picking up some task, but not driving it to the end.

Then, there were some issues in the past, I tried to address them, but as long term solution. No short-term solutions were derived by me. That seems to be my second drawback that is slowing me down. Not addressing the problem quickly in short term.

I did have some long term plans to improve this situation, even in the past, but, doing multiple things together is never beneficial. So, that’s my third drawback. Pick one task, finish that up. Or have a schedule of time, for each task, and do nothing else during the time so dedicated.

Take no problem lightly. No matter how small the problem reported, understanding the problem in depth, and acting on it as quickly as possible. This hasn’t been done by me. I did check the reported problems, but, never really had that added to my backlog, and closed it at the earliest possible time. That’s my fourth drawback.

It, so, seems to me that Doing It Right, Doing It At Right Time is a good approach to any problem.
This has been my learning during the 2 days of this short week.
While I learn from my mistakes, and I have gratitude for the tips, I’ve no shame in confessing that I build hatred towards certain acts. Acts of sarcasm, especially when they are expressed indirectly, when things I do are not working although I put my best efforts. I try to shut my emotions, but, when there are no mistakes from my end, I find it hard to control myself.

Things are easy said than done. And I’m trying to do things..


The Only Person You Should Be Better Than

To someone like me who finds it hard to overcome thyself, the hardest thing is the following.

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It is such an inspiring quote, but hard one to practice. I try to be better than what I was yesterday. Often I’m awestruck when I see people who stay happy no matter what. What an amazing strength they have. I often envy them, if have to be very honest. Envy them and try to overcome myself to push myself up by a considerable extent. It is when I fall doing so that I get that horrible feeling that shuts me down for a while, completely. I’m looking for that rhythm of life, if there is such thing existing. Have you found it yet?


Queen The Film

I watched the movie Queen this week. I booked tickets this time to avoid the queue.
The crux of the movie is a young girl who has grown up in an orthodox family finds her stance for the way she is, and I think by changing herself when she is pushed away by her fiance.

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Although I couldn’t understand every dialogue of the movie, I enjoyed watching it, and appreciated many characters in the movie. It seems, everybody has reasons for the way they are as shown in the movie, from the lead actress to her fiance, to her friend VJ to the prostitute from Amsterdam. The more we push our self to appreciate people for being themselves, the happy we keep ourselves, I guess or should I say, we do good by pushing people to change, but lose them if we don’t do it in a sensitive way, as it happens in the movie? I wonder..
I’m often miserably confused, too. I find it difficult to decide what is good and what is bad.. Nevermind, the life still rolls.. The week still runs.. The years still pass.. :) 

The Deutschland!

I was on an office trip to Germany for the last 3 weeks. People seem to like these trips a lot, but I kind of didn’t like it this time. I just did not want to go but I had to because of the commitments at office.

It was nice weather there. Brief cold, then sunny, and then rain, all in one day. No heavy road traffic. The buses, and trains arrive in time. Hot water always, heaters to keep the room warm, comfortable hotel room it was. Beautiful girls, kids playing with their bicycles with all merry, and those who sleep like they own the world, in the baby strollers. Cute, and adorable.

While all that is the good part of it, I kind of felt I was no where, lost some where, missing something, and I felt like turning the calendar dates quickly wanting finish my trip early.
Isn’t it when you most want that the time just doesn’t move fast at all? I was in that situation.
And I also know times when I don’t want the time to run fast, but it does. Ah, bad time.
Nevermind, I’m back home. I finished the 21 days trip.

Not the flight I flew in ;)

Not the flight I flew in ;)

Its the same flight ;)

Its the same flight ;)

The Disguise

I read a poem from internet and it made me think why we fear to be what we really want to be. Why can’t we just say what we want to, be it good or bad. Why do we see wrongdoings, but never raise voice. Why do we try to be something we are not, just to be liked by people. Why the disguise of true self often times.

This quote/poem I just read is from a widow and it is about her agony. But it sure has the power to express, for good, saying what she is really going through, so honestly.